FML

Oh yes....the usual anime scene, a future couple, alone together in a karaoke room. How sweet? Karaoke room, empty, dark, secluded. A place where loads of fantasies comes true. Fantasies that teenagers like me could only dream and hope for.

Being confessed to in a room like that, Sweet aint it? Ahh.........But the thing is, im in extreme pain, extreme angst-ness, in extreme shambles, i should say. Why?!?!?!?!?

Cause was kinda confessed to by a GUY. A GAY. A TRUE GAY.

I nvr believed in gays be4, only in lesbians. ;D Nvr believed as in, even if i have seen gays holding hands and all, but it still feels like something far away from me.

Sooo......

Went out K-Box with Jun kai and Sophia, with 2 other of their friends. And J.k warned me be4 hand that *unspeakable name* was gay, as in, really gay. But nooo, i took it lightly, as though it was a fking joke, Only to come to regret later on.

So half way threw, somehow, or should i say, magically, everyone else had some reason to leave the room, leaving me with *the unspeakable one*, all alone, in the k-box room, only with the plate of nuts redirecting my attention away from the constant uncomfortable stares i get from him. Then suddenly, he starts to talk about how i was "his type" and other stuff (WHICH I COULD HAVE SWORN WAS GOING TO LEAD TO A CONFESSION). It was so impactful, that even my unstandable leg hair, STOOD. The hair on my head started standing, (Thx to Sophy for telling me my hair was standing when she came back). And be4 the situation could get anyworse, i took the plate of nuts and shot the question. "Wanna have some nuts?"

Ahhhh, good nuts. Never be4 have i valued it so much in my life.

But seriously, why im a so suay? I dun wan to be attracting guys, i wan gals. That would be a perfect situation if only he were an at least okay okay gal. FK MY LIFE.

Is it karma?

Is someone trying to tell me not to look at gals so much?

Why is this happening to me. 1st the old woman in the lift, and now this? WHY AM I ATTRACTING ALL THE WRONG PEOPLE?!?!?!? WHY?!?!?!?!??!!??!!??

I can honestly see myself single for the rest of my poly life. This sux. Im already scared of girls, as in, scared. but not scared......like scared. At the same time not. Dunno how to put it. but yea.....And then now this? So what next? Im gonna be scared of both guys and gals? Should i just lock myself in my room and live the remainder of my life like that? Should i implement this scheme once my CRS presentation is done? Oh yea.....Yes i should.

In a room, watching food porn.

P.s: My mom thought i was watching porn, when i started moaning out the word sex when i was watching anthony bourdain eating some dam nice steak. So she barged into my room and scolded me, Only to see that i was watching food. Hah, she so dam pai seh after that. @_@

*more like how low i've become. Retarded. Wad is this.........Day by day, im just getting more and more retarded. IMH, its not so far now isit?